I've always been a really happy person. Looking back on my life so far, I feel like I've had a really easy time choosing to be happy and staying happy. In fact, there have been many times when I've watched others and wondered why happiness seemed to be a struggle for them. Deep down, I know that I've had plenty of unhappy times in my life and many challenges that made it feel like happiness was unattainable - at least in that moment. Recently, I think maybe my perspective on happiness has been changing. I've had moments where I felt like I was wrong about all the happiness I'd felt before in my life. Like that may have all just been ignorant bliss. (I'll digress. I already talked about that in my last post.)
Today, I had kind of an "ah-ha" moment. Someone said something in a lesson at church that really just clicked and triggered something in my brain. I think somewhere along the line, I let my happiness become dependent on "am I getting what I want?" instead of "how am I being blessed?". Perhaps "how am I being blessed?" isn't the one secret question to being happy, but it does provide for a lot more consistent happiness. Because, the blessings never stop people.
And ultimately, when I'm living worthy of those blessings, I guess I really am 'getting what I want'. But often it's all of the best things I never knew I wanted.
I realize this is not the most well-written post to happen to my blog. Partially, I haven't finished processing my thoughts about this and partially... maybe it's really just that simple. Happiness might just be a lot more simple than we make it. It's a choice, it's all around us, we just have to remember that it's there and let it be the part of our life that we hold onto.
And actually, I really want to know: how do you choose happiness - especially when life gets tough? what makes that difference in your life?